It's useless.

Everything I write is perversed. People think what I say when I speak my mind through typing is a lie. It's true. Then they think small lies are true.

The bully in ps17 also bent my ring finger upwards. I was afraid. I didn't think a finger could bend that way, but I was a child, so the bone didn't break. As a result of that... my fingers curve upwards when I hold my hand straight. When one bone is damaged it travels through the spine to the other hand. I displayed this in the mental clinic. When I try to show three fingers as if counting a number... my ring finger is protruding diagonally. I tried moving it back because of this... not the way he bent it. The bone past the joint felt like it moved upwards. I did it gently. Then I stopped. When a bone is disfigured it goes in the opposite direction and obviously all of you think everything I've said this far is a lie. At least by modern medicine... doctors already know this.

She wrote perfectly. I asked my parents to buy her book on parenting and read a little bit. Technology stopped me from reading further. I guess I don't have choices in what I want to read or despite pain in my right ear from a damaged nerve, hear the people I want to hear speak. Not sing. Speak.

I did make myself deaf in the other ear, through loud sound, because I couldn't handle the way sound felt. I can't hear live conversations but technology has to say something when people's lips move. At least I can hear pre-recorded music.

I can't have sex and release and I need morphine as a replacement. I also needed her my whole life, unfortunately she's happily married, so I guess that's over permanently.

The previous post. We need more food, for strength and lack of stress. We need to spend less money on tobacco, alcohol, and cigarettes, so that we can buy it. I've typed somewhere around 200 speeches or so. Belthagor, Dormantaccount2, Dormantaccount3.

It's useless. So after a bit more time I'm going to most likely delete all of them, unless technology stops me.

If I can't convince people to treat me normally then there's no point in writing anything on a computer or even on plain shit paper. The other two accounts are locked, belthagor for 10 years and dormantaccount2 for a year, so I guess I'll be forced to wait.

Don't bother reading any of them. They're shit. Simple word choices can change absolutely everything, which is why she was successful. And I'm not.

I wouldn't say fire if there's no fire. I have the right to censor things in this country, especially my own.

When I was a child in Bulgaria I saw a person smoking in Bulgaria with his coffee.

I asked him why he drank coffee and was the original person who said this back then "Money over drug" when he told me he needs it to work.

But there was a reason I said this, not just to have more money in his pocket. Bulgaria is poor and I told him he could use the money that he spends on coffee and smoking to buy more food instead. He was very slim, you see. Then the food he eats gives him more energy to work, he has less stress, he smokes less and buys less coffee and alcohol.

There was no internet back then... people just talked in person, maybe he told a bunch of people I really don't know, but I saw him again a few months later when walking with my mother outside and he smiled at me.

She asked if I knew this person, I said "no" because I had simply forgotten that I talked to him while I walked near our building as kids used to do back then.

A progressive economy spends more on beneficial things than it saves. At first... food would become more expensive, for example, but farmers and producers have to learn how to make more, so in reality in a few seasons after... it becomes less expensive again.

I'm not exactly sure what kind of internet I'm on because of music videos being modified in the images and sound on it.

I guess the previous time a lot of people may have heard it, but probably no one will read it.

Maybe I should turn it into a speech? Originally people made books and that influenced everyone, then we talked about things, now we have the internet and it's turned back into writing. Unfortunately Sara is tired so it will take me a while to actually turn this into a vocal project but I can do it tomorrow.

-Dimitar Rouynekov

https://vocaroo.com/13sNr1vNmCQu

https://vocaroo.com/122FH3XVIo9k

Something I've noticed, mostly in the mountains in Bulgaria, is that we have a lot of apple, cherry, and other trees.

Now, there aren't always people to pick the fruit from them, so they fall to the ground, and then the nutrients get absorbed back in the tree, making soil, and next season's fruit taste better.

As for farmers in rural areas, our machines are old, so sometimes some of the vegetables go back in the soil, they're simply missed instead of being picked.

People think this is bad.

In reality... this is a GOOD thing.

When you grow food... soil quality gets worse. The only thing that improves it is peanuts, so this makes it that we don't need to grow as many peanuts to preserve soil and food quality, to explain.

I'm not sure how to phrase it, I did my best.

I'm 32 years old and I have enough life experience to write. Also I think there's something in my coffee so I have no idea what this will look like.

If a very young person asks what sex is... instead of beating them up... show them how to do a push up. Then ask them to do the push-up. Our brains have to age faster than our bodies, because if our brains can't keep up with our bodies we would have difficulty surviving. They tried to do the push up. They couldn't. They very quickly gave up on this idea. But they kept doing the push ups, trying, anyway.

If a high school student wants sex... tell them to do push ups for 40 minutes in rhythm. BUT there's a catch... if they pause there's an equation which I wrote during my time in college which I lost the paper of. They tried. They quickly gave up on this idea. But they kept doing pushups for extended periods of time.

If a College student wants sex... well... at least they have great arms.

#BelthagorStopTryingToBeefUpTheWorld

There is only one reason your children stay with you after a short few years based on your actions and behavior.

I'm hungry, brb Food.

You know...

When I was a child I asked my father if the "eye for an eye" teaching might apply to the people in hell. That they would be tortured based on what they did to someone on earth, by, similarly to the people in heaven being turned into infants, the people in hell being turned into infants, so that they could live the life of the person they tortured most. The difference being that those in heaven would live their own previous life without torture and isolation from the opposite gender.

People say that hell has circles, but this makes things much more precise.

Oh come on. It can't be that bad.

Being gassed with something that causes pain and burns skin for decades. Being child abused by your father for nearly two decades. Being yelled at. Being hit 50 times at age 3 because dad asked mom for sex and even though he said the word in front of a young person they asked what it means. Realizing that pain makes you brain-dead and you won't be able to make your accomplishments and 650 million based on what you previously said about mechanical engineering in romantic technology. Being isolated from the only woman you fell in love with for decades or even your whole life, though, at least during her youth she had a better life, which is why she made money. The police, which are only doing their job, and nothing wrong, arriving at your apartment to escort you to a clinic, for forced imprisonment while you are showering, because by pure coincidence mom decided this is the exact time to call nearly each time. Being blasted with noises which the whole building heard but did nothing about. Being kicked in the testicles multiple times and hit in the penis once.

Accepting the love of your life purely because you heard her name, and after a few years realizing that love always loses because you can't accept her again even through sex and climax after pain if you were to have that. Seeing your cat lose weight because they beat it up while you were outside, then it passes away, the first died of strychnine poisoning, by the way. Being lightly shocked in your apartment from time to time through wireless electricity. Forced medications. No opiates to treat pain. Seeing your talent fade as you age. Realizing that you can't love a woman the same way after being hit. Forced psychiatric visits for an illness you don't have.

Pointless visits to Europe. Every place, as long as it has basic living conditions is nearly the same except for its size without a lover by your side. Being photographed against your will on the street. Being made deaf in one ear by a bully in public school when you're somewhere around 6-7 years old. Making yourself deaf in the other ear because you can't like the way sound feels. Realizing decades later... that the q tip he stuck in your right ear has damaged a nerve, and you've felt constant pain in it, which technology blocked off so you wouldn't complain. Realizing that other nerves have been damaged because of your shit father and you still feel pain. Being lied to.

Severe constipation. Being gassed with burning excrement through the ventilation while you shower to alleviate the previous fumes. Being forced to eat food through pain and loneliness for decades.

Realizing, that upon writing the words "Yeah I'm gonna regret it" that during her youth, Ariana probably threw the paper in the trash and decided to write the same thing after she lives on her own.

And many more things not covered.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CKhmCh68Qu0&ab_channel=CashmereCatVEVO

Hell may or may not have circles, but this makes things much more precise, don't you think so?

What do you think? Do I make a good Devil?

I'd imagine I would ask God to live my life as well, to see how he feels. He did it, then he came back. A long time passed before he said anything.

Hello everyone.

Maybe you broke a purse or you have a girlfriend... If you take the handle off (usually it has buttons) you can wrap it around bags which are uncomfortable due to having a thin handle... Connect the buttons and use it to carry groceries.

It's a great way to reuse something that broke and I recommend this to all my viewers male or female.

Is that water makes your voice more powerful.

It's actually food. Water makes it softer and more enjoyable to hear. Especially hot water such as when we had tea and coffee.

But there's a way which may or may not help... I'm not sure what they put in it nowadays. Boullion cube in hot water. Don't drink it too hot as that harms the voice.

Several hours apart or a day you can drink a glass of cold water.

I think this is why many people in America, based on music I listened to and people I spoke to when I was young have such pleasant voices. Because of 8 cups of water a day.

It should be noted that too much water constipates you so keep that in mind... people say on medical webpages that it loosens the body, it's actually the opposite.

Something like I forgot either peanuts and cherries at the same time or chips and cherries, one of the two, loosens you.

People who eat small amounts often tend to have less problems with constipation than people who eat a big meal quickly.

People who drink water in small sips often with pauses pee more often than people who drink a large glass of water in one go.

This is why twitch streamers are constantly going to pee. It's kind of funny.

Take a sip of water. Wait 5 minutes, take another sip.

I guess I should leave you with one last gift other than what I told my father.

Assuming you don't have problems with constipation, if you eat more food at once, more of it becomes body mass, and I don't mean fat, making you physically stronger. In complete seriousness I think this could be useful for people who uphold authority and protect people. Same with water.

In the words of someone on discord, years ago...

"-Belthagor stop trying to beef up the police." The conclusion of the series.

P.S. A loud voice is good, commanding, powerful. Don't smoke kids.

P.P.S.

When I was in High School I ate and drank plenty of fluids, but I usually drank less when I ate (a lot), and a few hours later drank a big glass of water. It kept me slim while making my voice stronger. It's good for metabolism.

As for why my voice sounds tortured now, aside from torture... I drank my coffee very hot in college because I had pain from some fumes. Afterward I made nettle tea in Bulgaria. I needed iron and I'm obviously not going to pay 20 levs for a supplement.

Now. There is a big difference between a chemist, which invented fully legitimate nettle tea after what I did in Bulgaria, and Dimitar Rouynekov Architecture student boils nettles fresh from the garden in front of the Building. It was a bit abrasive but I drank very little of it because of this. One sip. Then I left the whole thing in the pot because I was angry and my aunt threw it out.

At least sometimes failure leads to a great new business. Nettle tea that doesn't harm the throat. Copyright Bulgaria.

I spoke to someone and explained what I did, you see, during my vacation. What could one person do. At least we have more money now, people buy it out of curiousity then they lose interest but hey there are billions of people out there.